It Only Takes A Moment

So if you haven’t already heard, Hurricane Irene is supposed to pass through Manhattan this weekend. As they say on SNL, ooooohh weee, what up with that? It’s crazy that I moved from Texas to New York, only to be in the path of a hurricane! Crazy talk! I’m happy to inform you that where I live, Washington Heights, is probably one of the safest areas to be on the island. We’re on high ground plus it on the north west side, so it looks like we’re just gonna get a lot of rain.

Paige and I have loaded up on everything in the hurricane pirrouette prep list, and we’re ready for Miss Irene. And when I hear the name Irene, all I can think of is Hello Dolly. Anyone, else?

So with our flashlights, candles, playing cards, and coloring books, we’re gonna make the best of this hurricane weekend.

To my fellow New Yorkers, stay safe! And to everyone back at home in Tejas, thanks for all the well wishes. Hopefully this won’t be too bad!

love and laducas,

cc

p.s. king aaron and his familia got into town today. perfect timing, right? storm or no storm, I’m glad he’s here and can’t wait to get all of this stupid rain stuff out of the way so we can play in the city together.

¬†snapped this on my roof the other night! can’t imagine what its gonna look like when the storm hits land!

Things I’m Thinking

-I could seriously listen to music all day long.

-I love this city so much, but it is much easier to live in when you have a job.

-I’m kind of missing my long hair… Kind of…

-Broadway needs to revive more classics and cast me.

-I love having Paige Wheat as my replacement roomie. We have so much fun! I’ll be sad to see her leave me soon.

-Gina and I always have the best of times on our little outings.

-King A gets here Friday. To say I’m excited would be an understatement!

-Recently discovered the vocal stylings of Sophie Madeleine. Where has she been my whole life?

-Why is it that guys have prettier eyelashes than girls?

-There’s a hurricane headed towards New York… Say waaaa??? I just moved from Texas to get by a hurricane. Seriously Mother Nature?

-Went to Ellen’s Stardust for dinner tonight. Let me just say that that wait staff is so incredibly talented and I think they’re freakin fierce, however I heard way too much back phrasing for one night!

-If you have the Iphone and do not have Instagram, do yourself a favor and join the fun. And follow me: ccphotographyny.

More another day. Now I must sleep to rest up for the hurricane! Yikes…!

~cc

 

June 3, 2011

June 3, 2011. I though it would be easier than the year before. I’m emotionally the strongest I’ve been in two years. I knew it was still going to be hard but boy did I not see what was coming.

In a weird way, I was actually looking forward to the two year anniversary. If I was to feel any emotion that day it would be nothing but gratitude. Two years ago my life could have been taken away from me. I think that is one heck of a cause to be grateful. I was also grateful to have been very close friends to Makenzie Stocker, one of the most wonderful girls I’ve ever met. I was grateful for her friendship and impact on my life, both before and after the accident. I was grateful for Aaron; for the amazing young man he’s become and the bond we share in every moment of every day. The list is endless… the ability to continue to perform and to touch lives through it, live my dream of being a professional dancer, strengthen my testimony of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. It’s amazing how positive of a person I’d become. Not even June 3rd could get my spirits low. I of course would mourn, but I wasn’t about ready to go back into mean reds.

I’d made a lovely slideshow with the help of many friends. Planned a photoshoot with more friends. Cara planned a nice improvisational dance time for rehearsal that night. The day was supposed to be a good one. And it was… but unfortunately had a uneasy beginning.

Dear Madeline and I wanted to go to the intersection to lay some flowers on Makenzie’s cross in the morning, so with my mom and her dad, we did. It was lovely, we stood there together holding one another, without speaking a word, and shed some tears. Whenever I go to the intersection I can’t help but think about what had happened there and wish for just a second that I could remember it all.

We stood there for 10-20 minutes, I can’t tell time in moments like that. We walked back to our cars and said our goodbyes till later that night. In the car, I wiped my tear soaked face as my mom started the drive home. Not two minutes into our drive, the two cars right in front of us collided. The cars skidded along the median and then one car drove into ditch. Before I knew it my mom handed me the phone, I called 911, we were pulled over, and my mother was talking to the police. The car in the ditch had children in side. No one was seriously injured. I couldn’t stop crying for hours after. Two years later, when I thought I was this emotionally strong giant, I could handle anything, all of the sudden my greatest nightmare was flashing right in front of my eyes. The irony of it all was crazy… two years since the accident… I had just been to the intersection. The thoughts that filled my head that day were dreadful.

But like all things, it got better with time. It wasn’t until later that day when I was surrounded by my friends taking pictures of them with yellow tulips and white roses till I was finally able to have the June 3rd I had wanted.

The improv dance we did during intermission of RAFA’s Informal dress rehearsal was so touching. To be on stage with everyone and dancing together was such a special thing. It’s amazing to see how in losing one life, so many others were affected. The countless tears that have been shed for Makenzie will never match the steps that have been danced for her. That continue to dance for her…

olive oil.

~cc

photo courtesy of vanessa garner.

A Little King Lovin

So there’s this kid named Aaron.

It’s a shame he doesn’t have any talent.

I HAD to photograph him the other week, and boy was it a challenge.

KIDDING!

Love my King Aaron. We had a lovely little shoot a few weeks back and even though my phone drowned in the process, it was a wonderful day. Next time you see a shoot of mine of Aaron it will most likely be in NY. Come August he’s joining me in the Big Apple as he will be studying at Marymount Manhattan. Get ready NY, the King’s comin to town!

love and laducas,

~cc

Hello. Hi. How are you?

I got to see Maddie when she was in New York. My, how she’s grown… Hopefully I’ll get to see the rest of the fam one of these days. I miss them almost as much as I miss you.

I think often about what you at 20 years old would like like. I bet you’d be gorgeous and have dozens of men groveling at your feet!

I forgot how you were planning on going to Disneyworld to perform. You’d be so happy to see Dana there. I love how spread out we’ve all become and yet we’re still together.

Living in the city is so amazing. I’m so glad you got to come here and experience its amazingness.

Our closet talk on your 18th bday… I think about that conversation with you, me, and cara a lot. Oh how time changes everything!

I got my iphone a week before the accident. I treasure those texts that we had that last week, for I lost ALL of our old ones with my old phone. Along with our weekly photos we would take at your casa. I did get a few from Kade that I’d happen to text to him. I treasure those pictures.

You know, I can’t recall ever seeing you cry. You got close that one Mirliton rehearsal where I thought you were going to rip Luis’ head off, but you were solid as a rock. You were the most optimistic person. All the times I came sobbing on your bed, you’d know what to say. And even when you didn’t know what to say, you fed me ice cream which did the trick. Your comfort will always be one of the things I appreciated the most about your friendship to me.

Friday marks 2 years. It’s scary how fast time has flown. I’m glad I’ll be home with Aaron. Oh Kenzie, if you could only see what an amazing man he’s become. June 3rd changed all of us… for the better. As hard as it is sometimes, I know that we’re all better people now.

As lucky as I am to not remember what happened, it’s so painful not knowing sometimes.

You seriously never took a bad photo, did you?

I miss the homemade Stocker Salsa. Yummm…

Your mom gave me one of your statues from your collection. It means the world to me to have it.

The other night I saw Alina Cojocaru perform at ABT. I remember the picture you had of her in your bedroom. And how originally you put it there to cover the Thomas the Train art on the wall.

Hello. Hi. How are you. You look great today. And hey what’s new. And that’s so true. And oh my god. No way.

I finally watched The Notebook tonight. First time since we last watched it together. I teared up, but successfully did not cry. Then about an hour later, I sobbed. I’ll be seeing you…

~cc

photo by john gladu.

Home

And loving it!

I’m back in Tejas taking class, seeing friends, and spending time with my amazing family.

xoxo!

~cc

Favorite Images from 2010

from personal photos to my photoshoots, here are my favorite photos from last year.

There are so many more images that I love from this past year, but of course I couldn’t put them all up. Can’t wait to see all the images that are created out of 2011.